I did something today i regret doing and i feel bad about it but i dont know if i can be frogiven because i always say im never going to do it again, and then i mess up and do it :(
You know, I could have written these exact words myself. I understand what you mean because I am going through the same struggle with something.
Whenever I mess up - especially if it’s with something I’m struggling very hard to overcome - my first thought afterwards is always “This will be the time He gives up on me” - and in my darker moments, I almost wish He would. But He never has. Of all the things I struggle to comprehend about God, it is His infinite grace; the love and the patience He has shown me, that I have the hardest time understanding, because I don’t deserve it. I can’t even obey His commandments for 24 hours, and yet He gives me chance after chance after chance. I have found that His mercies really are “new every morning.”
Here’s what I think we have to do when we mess up: we have to take Him at His word. If He tells us that He will never leave or forsake us; that He is with us in the deep waters; that He will uphold us, then who are we to doubt Him? So accept the new beginning He offers you every morning, and ask for His help with whatever you are trying to overcome. All things are possible with Him.
By the way, if you haven’t read C.S. Lewis’ Mere Christianity, I so recommend it:
You must ask for God’s help. Even when you have done so, it may seem to you for a long time that no help, or less help than you need, is being given. Never mind. After each failure, ask forgiveness, pick yourself up, and try again. Very often what God first helps us towards is not the virtue itself but just this power of always trying again. For however important chastity (or courage, or truthfulness, or any other virtue) may be, this process trains us in habits of the soul which are more important still. It cures our illusions about ourselves and teaches us to depend on God. We learn, on the one hand, that we cannot trust ourselves even in our best moments, and, on the other, that we need not despair even in our worst, for our failures are forgiven. The only fatal thing is to sit down content with anything less than perfection.
Good luck to you. :)
Daniel McConchie, the Vice President of Government Affairs for Americans United for Life, informed LifeNews of a subcommittee meeting where a representative of Planned Parenthood was opposing a law that stated babies born alive after abortions must be given medical care. He sent the transcript.
Chairman Boyd: “So, um, it is just really hard for me to even ask you this question because I’m almost in disbelief. If a baby is born on a table as a result of a botched abortion, what would Planned Parenthood want to have happen to that child that is struggling for life?”